Leah's Story

It’s 1am on Dec 31, 2011.  So, technically it’s New Year’s Eve.

The past 3 months back in LA have been really challenging, after driving 5 days across country alone, my house was a disaster area, my new roommate completely bailed on me, I sprained my ankle so severly that it’s still not 100%, and then to top things off my beloved Mustang breathed her last breath the week before Thanksgiving on the 5 Fwy.

It’s just about enough to make any gal, throw up her hands and yell UNCLE! I give up!

But something, and I’m still not sure what that something is.. keeps me going.. something happens like.. my acting coach calls and offers me a work-study, or I have a really fun film audition, or I’m on avail for 10 days for a commercial that I really wanted, or I get to spend more time with my fav Geek Girls from our Comikaze panel…. these things refuel me when I feel as if I’m on empty.

I’ve been close to empty a lot the past few months.

I decided to stay in LA for the Xmas Holidays. My first time ever, in mylifetime, that I wasnt with my family on Xmas Eve & Xmas.

My thoughts behind it were a) I could probably book a bunch of holiday freelance gigs, b) I was just on the east coast for an entire year, and c) maybe it was time to be an adult, and create my own holiday traditions.

Some of those thoughts turned out to be valid; I did book a really cool holiday gig delivering expensive cookies to every studio, law firm, and mngmt company in town.  I did embrace my own interests/traditions and attended a new moon meditation on the Santa Monica beach for Xmas eve, and on Xmas morning I attended a heart-opening kundalini workshop at Golden Bridge.

However, I have concluded that the christmas carols were right. They’re always right, I should know that by now. ‘There’s no place like home for the holidays’.

Until I have my own family, or at least a significant other, there’s really no where else I’d rather be then lounging around my mom & dad’s house drinkin hot toddies, eating Gmom’s Xmas cookies, and watching A Christmas Story and other classics for the 1000th time.

So the holidays are basically over, and I’m feeling a sense of calm strength. I’m ready to tear down some walls, kick open some doors, and blast thru some levels of resistance and fear that are standing in my way of really reaching and embracing success.

Tomorrow night, or later tonight if you will.. I’m going to attend a 3hour New Years Eve Workshop at golden bridge yoga, complete with an Indian Feast aftewards… I will be chanting, breathing, mediating, and releasing what doesn’t serve me any longer, and welcoming in all the goodness that awaits me in 2012.